I must have been a naughty boy this year.

1. Santa din get me any presents.
2. My gal ain't ard to be with me.
3. I got food poisoning. Shitted and vomited my way thru Christmas eve. Still crappin' today. Eugh.
4. To add insult to injury, the aunties in my neighbourhood organised a Xmas countdown party underneath my void deck. They are still dancing to Ah beng techno hits la. Like ur Tarzan & Jane, Butterfly, Boom Boom Boom. Wah lau.

My heart really pain. The aunties really made it hurt this Christmas.

Havent vomitted for a v v long time. Just now i saw my dinner + tang yuans come gushing out from my mouth. I felt rice, the black sesame and peanuts from the tang yuans, and other generic stuff. Gross. But it felt good and comfy after tt. Er..

Re-recorded Strained. Not ur usual radio friendly stuff. Its heavy + bad singing. Added some stuff for the intro and cleaned up the solo. Now it sounds really wicked and fast. Tt's how all metal solos shld sound like. Fast and wanky.

K nuff nonsense.

Finally recorded Driven properly! FYI this is the first song i wrote, written abt june last yr. Kinda reflected what i was thinking back then, alittle childish tho. Simple song with only 4 chords, but i spiced it up this time with a slightly improved solo and better accompanying drums. Enjoy ;)

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Lyrics:

Verse
Frustration
Anxiety
Keeps churning my head
I've waited for this
I wanted revolution
Driven by desire
Desire to be free

Chorus
There's a wild spirit in me
That keeps on wanting to break free
I'm ready for this run
I'm driven
Though the going's tough for me
I know nothing's gonna break me
I'm ready for this run
I'm driven

Verse 2
Rejection
Uncertainty
Consequences of my love
But I'm not regretting
Gonna push the limits
My passion lights the fire
The drive to achieve

Chorus to end.

Boring holiday. (Rant ahead)

I realise i'm v plain person. After watching About A Boy just now, yea i felt like the main character. No no i do not mean tt i look like Hugh Grant(maybe my gf does ^^). Rather i felt tt i have the same life as the fella in the show. Meaning.. no life.

Every wake up, read papers nua at home. Nothing up nothing down. Just waiting to shag the next girl, or for my instance, waiting for my girl to come home.

I guess without her ard, no one will actually initiate to go out with me. I'm not someone to jio pple out either. Hmm, either ways i'll be stuck at home. Fiddling with my guitars. Trying to break through, which doesn't really happen alot.

Speaking of guitars, my bday present from my girl finally arrived. It took a nice 2 mth boat ride i guess, but at least it came in one piece. Yea my gf bought me a guitar. What luck. Tho it's scaled down like 100:1. It's almost similar, came with a guitar case too. Strat, sunburst, 3 pickups, 6 strings, whammy bar, 3 knobs. Amusingly small. Shld take a good pic of it if i get the chance.

The thing abt it is, i dunno where to put it. Hmm. I need a major revamp in my room since i've moved out of hall. For the uninformed, yes i moved out. Withdrew just this wednesday. Alison said tt Colin will try his best to dissuade me from moving out, but i heard nothing from him. Heh. Paperwork was fast and smooth. Hassle-free.

Been playing alot of basketball and sweating buckets lately. Kinda slimmed down i guess. Gone was the little tummy tt Daniel infected TDS with. Haha. Trainings were starting to feel more fun, but there's something to it which i keep feeling scared abt. No idea y. Everytime i struggle to drag myself to training, but at the end of it i felt rewarded. It's this mixed up feelings inside which probably explains my eccentric-ness.

Blogging is getting boring ain't it. I dun even feel like updating it anymore.

So well it's official. I'm not gonna stay hall nxt sem. I can forsee alot of responses but let's just say tt it's not worth staying anymore. At least for now. Maybe if TH is kind enuff they'll let me stay in year 2 or something? We'll see abt that. Until then, i'm a free man!

If u really need to know the reasons, here's why(in no particular order/importance):

1. $1700 per sem is too freaking ex. Well it took me 1 sem to realise it but it's never too late. I feel that my parent's money can be better spent elsewhere like... SEP. Hmm.
2. Hall is too busy. And the saddening thing is, i'm not feeling very satisfied with the activities in hall. Part of my main aim to stay in hall was to kind of learn some new stuff and meet some great people. Sad to say it ain't happening.
3. Band: Kinda got stuck with the non-rocking crowd. Took me pains to hype them up, but pple are just not tt interested la. Plus, if i'm the so-called best guitarist in band, there's gotta be some problem there man.
4. Xinyao: Guess it's really not for me. Chinese pop ain't my cup of tea and there ain't anyone to teach me stuff.
5. PA: Probably the place where i learnt the most, but sometimes it seems more like a chore to me to do the duty and all tt. I love music, but i realise i just dun really like setting it up.
6. Well it's gal's last sem, and i wish i can go sch with her for the very last time. Yea it's now or never. She's gonna grow up and join the workforce pretty soon, so this is the last chance we can go sch together.
7. Hall people, some are good some are bad. But i realise ultimately they are just people who will disappear from ur life after u leave hall/uni. Well not to say they are insignificant to my life, but umm i just feel tt eventually we will part so y not make this simple and sweet. Alison mentioned something abt company, but street42 guys will always be there for me anytime any day. It's torturous to go thru so much trouble just to get someone to eat dinner with u in hall.

It's amusing how the whole world starts caring for u once again when u decide to withdraw from hall. It suddenly makes u feel so impt to other pple. Perhaps this is one of the reasons y pple continue to stay in hall. Peer pressure. But whatever the case i'm not someone who will succumb to peer pressure. In fact i give so much peer pressure to other pple tt they succumb to me haha ^^

Anyways i havent blogged for a while, reason being there's nothing interesting to blog abt. It's been training on 1 3 5 and waking at 3 pm on 2 4 6 7 looking ard the hse and waste the day away. Yea simple as tt.

Recording a new song btw, a cross between Marilyn Manson and Linkin Park, tho i feel it's more inclined to Linkin Park. Needs some Chester-ish screaming but im not really able to muster tt. Layed down the music already, all it lacks now is the lyrics and singing. Probably do it someday when i get inspired.

Tt's abt it. Watch out for the song release!

K guys it's another new song from me. Wrote this one quite a while ago, just din want to "release" it cos it's meant to be a surprise for my gal's bday. Glad she kinda liked it *phew* Well it's basically written for her, so if it sounded a little mushy then so be it ba. Technically speaking, i've yet violated my rule of writing a love song. Read the lyrics to see how i worked around it :)

Click Me to stream or click the sidebar link. It's there.

Lyrics (There's still room for improvement)

Verse
A shining light from a sea of blue
that's you
the million facets of your smile
so beautiful

Prechorus
It's not just the way how u swept me off my feet
It's how u made me believe..

Chorus
that we
will walk this world..
we will walk this world together..
we..
will walk this world
we will walk this world together

Verse
When u first left i was at a loss
oh no
Now u make me cherish the presence
Of you

Prechorus 2
it doesn't matter how far u are away from me
As long as i get u to see...

Chorus

Bridge
sometimes i fall
sometimes i can't carry on
but you make me stronger now
When i couldn't see,
you made me believe in me
my world is beautiful now.