Sometimes i wonder just how fucking suay can u get?
First day of work, you wake up happily, excited, full of energy and hope. "Today is gonna be a good day" you think to yourself. Washed up and went for breakfast.
Ordered the usual fishball noodles, but the stupid part time auntie who served me gave me the wrong noodles. So i had noodles mixed with kway teow. Nvm. Today is a good day. Cos Chang is going to work.
Reached the workplace alittle too early. Nvm, just wait for this Evelyn to arrive and I can start work to earn some pay. Evelyn came, said hi, picked up her friend from the office and told me to wait in the office for another guy Lawrence. Said Lawrence rang up the recep and asked if anyone had entertained me, but apparently he's supposed to that. So recep passed me the phone and I talked to this Lawrence. Apparently he has no clue who this Evelyn was. Nvm. Call Evelyn, and she told me the person tt's supposed to assign me the task is on leave. And that Lawrence is so busy he has no time. Like WTF la.
So in the end i went at abt 9 am. What a day of work.
Nvm, go home, my stupid insensitive brother still has the cheek to dance ard me and ask me stupid questions like "Why are u home so early? Why do u look so down?". No wonder all your girlfriends left u one by one. Cos u are FUCKING INSENSITIVE. Leave a pissed man alone for once. Apparently my family has totally no idea on sensitivity. They like to ridicule you when u are feeling the most shit, making u feel more loserish. My mom will call up all her relatives and tell them the wonderful tale of how her younger son came home at 9 am on the first day of his work. My father will just keep sneering and laughing and brag about how useful he is and how useless his younger son is. And my brother will be limited to "Ah ha, loser. Go eat shit. This kind of things can also happen to you."
Shit family. So fuck off.
Apparently the level of appreciation from my bandmates is just so little. Probably it's zero. Y. Cos when i sent Biao the updated version of my song, it's as tho he's heard it the first time. And then a "I dun like it" and he starts talking abt other stuff. Oh well. That's it. You all can go die for all i care.

New version of Instru-Metal is up. U can listen to it either by pressing the link on the sidebar =>

Or if u are lazy to figure that out, u can click HERE

Ok i can't really put up the song on YouSendIt, so yea u have to disable ur pop-up blocker to listen to the track.

Update on the track: Essentially, the essence of the song hasn't been changed. Just that i added more stuff to it and rearranged the structure. Added a new riff after the first solo, and a new solo to go on top of that riff. Trying out some tapping stuff, but can't seem to get it real smooth tho. Then comes a transition to a slow part, where some volume swells were played (those violin sounding notes). The last solo is essentially the same as the old one with just a few minor note changes. That's pretty much about it.

Like Ian said, i'm not much of a shredder. U can actually pretty much hear it from this track urself. So yea dun assume I am and then when i fail to impress you, start making a big fuss about how sucky i am.

I should probably play rhythm guitar instead.

Nonsense lyrics i wrote last night when i couldnt sleep. Probably too much conspiracy theories in my head too. Here goes:

Verse:
There's a spaceship in the air
It's floating about, spinning round and round
You look up, caught a glimpse but it flew away
You had no clue, and didn't knew what to say.
20 years later, a crater hit your town
Lucky no one was hurt, but there were funny sounds
Lucy said she saw shadows walking 'bout at night
Nothing's happened till we caught one in sight!
Chorus:
Oh aliens
They've come to get us
If we tried to run
They'll shoot with laser guns

Yea something like tt. Pretty lame stuff but oh well.

I've played guitar until my fingers couldn't take it anymore. And i'm still feeling bored.

This has been a pretty funny week. It's so guitar-ish for the past few days.

Monday: The 2 guitarists from the band R.E.I. came over my house. Needed me to set up their effect pedals and to see Vincent's latest acquisition: a BC Rich Beast. Crazy looking guitar, suitable for a Visual Kei band.

Tuesday: My NDU bunkmate Jerrard came all the way from Bedok to learn some guitar from me. It's been a while since i saw him, but nothing has changed. Probably alittle weight gain like me haha.

Today: Bumped into Michelle's dad in the kopitiam. He's a pretty good blues guitarist. Had lunch and chatted a while with him.

My point? Nothing.

Xiang wants to re-form a band to jam and gig ard. I believe it's partly because there've been plenty of gigs in RP and he thinks they suck => we have a better chance than them. But whenever we come to this band thingy i get alittle uptight again. Here's the reason why:

In my opinion, the 2 most important members in the band are the drummer and the vocalist. If u have a crap singer, the crowd will cringe when u open ur mouth. Regardless of whether the music is good or not. Just watch Superband/Singapore Idol to get a good idea. If u have a crap drummer, then ur music is gonna get jerky. Uneven tempo. Like a spoilt tape.

Frankly speaking i do not think we have a very decent drummer in terms of Xiang. He can play for sure, but it's definitely not good enough to go gigging. Irregular tempos, can't really fill in when there's the need to. And his arsenal of grooves is not wide enough, so that really limits his versatility => he can only play rock and tt's it.

Singer-wise, Kai is alright enough. He can probably hold a tune or two. But he's not the singer singer u know what i mean. He's more like "ok Kai sings the best amongst us, so Kai shall sing". And he has the irritating habit of insisting on playing the guitar, even tho he's not really that good cos Biao is much better than him. Another thing, he's a regular, so he can't really commit to this nonsense. Same goes for Han Yuan.

And if ever had the slightest thought of asking me to sing, i'd say fuck you. My singing sucks, u know i know, shirui knows best. The only only reason i sing in my songs is well, they are MY songs. Quite easy to understand right. If i had a singer friend who is interested to sing my song, well he/she can always go ahead and i'd do the recording for them right away. Or maybe form a collaboration or something.

One thing abt this band hype is tt i believe it will dissipate over time. Because there's a very very strong reluctance for Xiang to jam outside, which means we can only find musicians who live close to us. Bassists are already a very scarce commodity in the music scene, good bassists are even harder to find. What makes u think we can find a Good Bassist that lives near Jurong West Street 42? Han Yuan was a prize find. Cos he's really good and has the experimental/improvisational vibe in him. And he wants to shred on the bass somemore. But we can't really use him, cos like my brother, he's a bloody regular.

So unless Xiang is willing to jam outside, this thing is not really gonna work.

Fortunately for this round, i'm not the band leader. I dun wanna do all this shit work anymore. Let Xiang do it and we'll see how it turns out.

Finally i got to befriend this fella who lives in my neighbourhood. His name is Jonathan. I see him ard the area pretty frequently, always lugging his guitar ard. He plays for this band Funkadelics Inc. Seems pro, but i havent heard him play before. He's got quite a solid setup too, and a self-modified guitar. Cool dude i'd say, other than the fact tt he speaks funny.

Still working on my little radiohead-ish tune. Can't seem to find a breakthrough in terms of: getting the right drum beat, the vocal melody, the LYRICS, song structure. All i have are just the tunes for both guitars. Help?

Enough bullshit for tonight.

I read this from a friend's blog:

I have met many friends along the road, passerby who eventually found someone else who is more fun and loving and move on. I could only walk behind them and see their back as they disappear. Only him, he's the only one who took the effort to turn back and say, hey, walk faster, you are disappearing. And that's why i continue to follow him in the back.

Makes me wonder if he's talking abt me. Hmm.

Anyways just wondering how much of a difference have i made in other pple's lives?

Someone just told me:

u inspired me to play lead alot... not slash or some gay japanese lead guitarist.

Quite a stunning statement i feel.

Lots of thoughts tonight.