Just when i thought my parents are back home with me, they've left for msia yet again. Yea, my aunt just passed away, and they are going back for her funeral. By right i shld be gg with them, but i've gotta go back to camp on monday. Talk abt coincidence.
My mom called me just now abt 3hrs ago to inform me that they will be away for slightly longer this time. Cos my the other aunt has passed away too. Fortunately, my cousin Koon msn-ed me to correct the information. Well, if it is good news, my other aunt has slipped in a coma instead. When she'll wake up, i do not know. If she'll wake up, i do not know. But i do know that it's a double tragedy for my family.
If it's good news, at least my dad's sis passed away peacefully, with nothing to worry abt anymore. She had 2 sons, both happily married with kids, and her grandchildren are all grown up. My the other aunt, has 3 children, tho none of them married, at least they're well-established in their careers. For both of them, their children have all grown up. And i'm still here chasing my childish dream.
Sometimes i feel that i'm not "dong shi" enough, doing all the stupid nonsensical things that makes my parents angry/worry abt me. I wonder what if one day they are really gone, would they still worry for us in their hearts? Sometimes i hate myself for needing people to think for me and make decisions for me.
Read/heard from somewhere: Growing up is making decisions and living with the consequences. (something like tt)
Somehow a Slipknot Live DVD seems less harsher than reality itself.
On a less grim tone: Today the band has re-recorded some of the tracks. As usual i'll add in the horrible vocals yet again and do some simple mixing and editing to improve the songs. Watch this space.
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