Hmm, so i havent blogged in a while. Yea. It's a dead thing now. At least i've lost my blogging streak.

Lately i've realised that there's a need to do alot of stuff. The need to blog, the need to practise guitar, the need to exercise and keep fit, the need to do this and that.

I say fuck it.

So i holed up in my room and played Neverwinter Nights since. And my mind was all Neverwinter Nights. Nothing else. My world seemed happier for a moment.

Sometimes the need to do things scares me. It's like this whole social burden thing. When i look at Shirui now, frantically applying for jobs, thinking abt her future... i'm like "fuck this is gonna happen to me in 2 yrs time."

And then u lose ur life forever, working endlessly to earn a living and all that.

Idealism vs Realism.

Rockstar vs Analyst.

Like Chao said, when we were born, we were only given 50 credits. As u grow up ur parents decide where the 50 credits shld go.. to be a smart person, to be a strong person....

And u end up the person u are now.

So now, with the same 50 credits, u'll decide how u will turn out to be, cos ur mom and dad ain't gonna make the decisions for u now. Not that u'll ever listen to them that much anymore.

Moral of the story: We are all equal. Everyone is just strong in different aspects. So stop whining.

Anyways, so i havent touched guitar for a very very long time. Just some occasional noodling here and there. I guess there isn't gonna be anything new coming up for a while. I dun wanna clog my brain with little musical motifs too.

Ok nothing is making sense.

Anyways now that there isnt anyone ard to read, it feels better to blog. The constant thought of wondering if anyone was reading/listening was too much to handle.

The voyeuristic idea of reading other ppl's blogs is getting out of hand too.

There's no need for u to know so much abt me.

There's no need for me to track your movements.

There's no need to woodshed, when u know that cutting an album is out of the way since u can't sing.

There might still be a need to workout though, since it's 400 dollars. Mmm. And possibly another item from Citigems. ^^

Oh, i bought my girlfriend a diamond ring. And the reason is simple.

Cos i love my girlfriend.

Marrying her is another issue. We'll see abt that.